Argh, fuck, sometimes I feel like I'm incompetent. Other time I just want to shift the blame to someone else. Most of the time, though, I just don't know what the problems are.

GMing is too goddamn hard sometimes. Not because of the writing that needs to be done, that's the easy part. The hard part is keeping your players happy. Fuck, they tell me they are but I'm such a paranoid lil' bugger I don't believe them. I refuse to believe they're having fun while barely posting at all outside of when people prod them, or when they keep losing in the IC. But when I try to ask and engage, I either get no response or a response that everything's fine.

I guess I just want feedback I'm not getting. Because of that, I keep thinking my RP is in a slow decline and that makes me the most worried person on earth, considering the year and a half of work I put into it.

I'm just glad my players don't frequent this thread...