"The cruel irony of it is that it did not." Meesei commented, somewhat despondently. "I was never able to find the knowledge I needed to combat the gas in Mora's realm. I found tomes of knowledge on a multitude of other topics, but no matter how close I felt that I was getting, I did not find the answer to the gas. Sabine's sister was the one who was able to create the potion we use to resist it, and of course, you and Marod have helped us secure the means to produce it. Even if the knowledge I desired existed, I doubt Mora would have let me find it. That knowledge was what was keeping me in his realm, obsessed with searching through the endless mountains of tomes."

Meesei squeezed Lunise's hand lightly, fully embracing any comfort she was willing to give. "The book itself was just a sort of portal. It kept me between this world and Apocrypha. I spent so much time there that my body started to wither, as I was so...obsessed with finding the cure we needed that I could not focus on anything else. My pack managed to convince me that my efforts were not worth the sacrifices I was making. I had hardly spoken to them at all for the better part of a year by the time they all confronted me together. And even before that, I had been growing more and more reclusive. But, my pack is my family, and I love them all. When they managed to convince me of how I was hurting them, I gathered the willpower to throw that cursed book off of a waterfall. I would have destroyed it more permanently, but Daedric artifacts are notoriously durable."

Pausing, Meesei took in a slow, deep breath. "So, I have been left with ancient, forgotten magic, and quite a lot of pain. I just hope that the power I gained from Apocrypha comes to serve some meaningful purpose. I am more effective at fighting our enemies now, at least. And I have been able to apply my magic to aid my clans' logistics. Again, I would not repeat the experience, but there is no reason not to use the power and insight I have already gained. My experiences and studies did teach me new ways of approaching magic that I did not consider before. The Psijics in particular have an enlightening view on existence."