[@SleepingSilence]

You know it is kind of hard to articulate exactly.

I do believe that life is ultimately meaningless in any grander scheme and I'm just trying to do my best to make it nice for myself and for others. I think things can be moral in that framework.

Of course if I don't have free will then I cant have chosen to think that in any meaningful way, its just a happy lie my brain perpetuates :P

Does that make me a Nihilist?