[quote=@Penny]I want to reiterate that this isn't a belief in which I take comfort, quite the opposite in fact.
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So why believe it? It's irrational, vapid, self-defeating, etc. and apparently also distressing. Is it enriching your life somehow? Just call bullshit and move on. 

[quote]I feel like the lack of magic universe altering extra biological decision making powers ought to be the ground state.[/quote]

Ah. That's it. This irrational vapid self-defeating distress is your access card to the 'it's okay to not believe in fairy godmothers' club. Well you don't need it. You're perfectly capable of making up your own mind.