[@Kangaroo]

I mean, the head admin himself said he wasn't willing to discuss my j8's/ban, claiming it was between me and him. Even then he made it clear he was not going to listen to any repeals made by me or j8cob.

Even though people speak very harsh words about Ruby, She was responsive (to my dms at least, I know people have had different experiences) and even told me she attempted to repeal my ban, however, it was obviously unsuccessful. I appreciate that at least, seeing as how most of my criticisms were about her most recent actions at the time, and we were able to both walk away on amicable terms, even coming to an agreement.

We've had genuine concerns and requests, denied time and time again by other mods- While I am appreciative you are willing to hear me out, again, as I pointed out earlier, there's really no point when the head admin already said he would stand by my ban with little to no discussion, as evidenced by j8cob's attempt. 

I forgot to also add I wanted uniform application of the rules- You weren't there on the discord when I decided to air my shortcoming about babycrib and the lack of a proper warn then ban system, (Chai, another user on the thread also expressed the same misgivings about the so called "babycrib") Yet only I was targeted. So why was Chai, this other user not targeted? She can vouch for me since babycrib is obviously now deleted. It makes little to no sense, which is why I've really not talked about the issues I had until now- seeing as Nutts and Mahz are willing to disregard what I say, I didn't feel there was a point in protesting any of it.

And as you say, as things are supposedly mostly mutual decision, if Mahz is going to stamp his foot down, then dming you would have little change from DMing mahz or nutts themselves.