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😭 so sad :'(
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Lol, I know it's a bit heavy as a topic. But I enjoy exploring these. A lot of RPs people like to be strong and powerful bosses and all that, but I enjoy exploring who a character is. Adam's story's not really one of grieving over loss so much as it is letting go of the past and trying to accept the realities of existence. He didn't kill his son, it was just a series of unfortunate events no one could have foreseen. But for him, he feels that it's all his fault and his failure to keep his son with him caused his death. The raid's history is a bit undefined at the moment, but just a casual raid feels silly and I think the idea I'll have in mind is it was a bigger raider group trying to make raiders and settlements their subjugated tributaries and their town was the last holdout and refused to pay. But it's not expected to come up in the RP unless someone can asks about his past. Otherwise he's more trying to live in the here and now. Discarding his photo of his family he raised is less about him abandoning/coldly discarding or anything like that and is more intended as a sort of beginning road to letting go of the grief that's made him the man he is now. He's spent the past six years celibate and refused to even date and it was all driven by feelings of guilt. Guilt he couldn't prevent Ellia's cancer (reasonably no one could, but guilt and grief aren't always reasonably driven) and his son's he feels he could have prevented and it's his fault. He's let off the first shackle by letting go of his wife (he isn't going to forget her, but his photograph is an emotional chain on his leg, not simply a loving memento) and letting go of his son's death will be even harder since there's more room for blame there.