I'm normally not one for seeking advice for a problem as I tend to tackle it alone and head-on.

I feel like what i am asking for in a roleplay mostly seems either out of reach or not very appealing to people (out of date) and at times I've honestly felt like leaving and not coming back because at times i feel like i am not being understood with what i want.
On the one hand I feel so frustrated that it happened but on the other hand I feel mostly frustration and at times depressed (if that makes sense). 
At times whatever RP's i have i am also waiting for a reply or if they forgot about it which has me vexed also. It's like whatever road i have I'm bound to hit a dead end sooner or later and it doesn't help me feel positive much in the slightest because i feel like it's another thing to chalk up that is against me.
What is your advice and thoughts on this because i do not know which way to go right now on this fork in the road even though my misses are more than my hits..