Hello my dear

I'm honestly trying to find the motivation [s]to do anything[/s] to keep going

Still in shock and despair

I still am going to keep this 1x1 and I still have many ideas for this. Just... I hope you can be patient with me. 

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When I got the notice that I was offered the full-time job, I thought to myself: [b][i] "This is it. A chance to prove to everyone, and especially myself, that I am not that useless after all - that I do have strengths and I am in many ways desirable." [/i][/b]

Then the opportunity got yanked away from me because I was deemed incompatible for the job, like a door key trying to start a car. 

... I just want that positive feeling of [i]'Good'[/i] again.