Sabine's eyes dropped to the fire. She stole a glance at Do'Rhajul. She brought a hand up from her new cloak and wiped both of her eyes.

"Lorag...my packmate, he was a soldier under Do'Rhajul," Sabine's voice grew at least somewhat more audible. "He said that Do'Rhajul would not do the things he has done. Not normally." She looked at the fire silently. The pause lasted a few seconds. "If I took you both home, they would make you answer for everyone killed under his command. They would try him. And then sentence him to death."

Sabine stopped. She was thinking to herself but the pause let her words sink in.

"But..." Sabine hesitated. Her mouth stayed ajar for long enough to find words. "A long time ago, my sister tried to cure my lycanthropy when I was a child. She locked me in a silver cage and forced me to take medicines that did not work. She tried for a long time. Everything hurt. Everything made the beast rage and cry. And I cried. But after a long time trying, she stopped, she smuggled me away, and she let me free. Years later, I had my pack, they helped me. I did not tell them what happened. Then we passed near my old home. My sister found us. I was scared at first. But she..." Sabine blinked twice as her eyes welled up again. "She just wanted forgiveness. She thought she was doing the right thing. She stopped trying to cure me when she realised I was only getting hurt. She smuggled me away so I would not get killed. She let me free near a forest where I would not be likely to hurt anyone, and because she did not know how to hide me or take care of me."

Sabine blinked again, fresh tears joined the drying lines on her cheeks. "I had a knife at her throat. I could have killed her. I did not want to. I did not want to make more suffering." She closed her eyes for a moment.

"I forgave her in the end. My pack found out about the story. Meesei knew how to help me by having me talk with the Hist. My sister helped us in the end. She helped me recover. She is a good person. She always was. She did bad things because she thought it was right. When she realised it was not, she knew her mistake and tried to make up for it. She did it all because she loved me."

Sabine's cringed forward neck straightened. She took a deeper breath. "The lycans clans will not fall apart if Meesei dies -- they are not organised purely under her. Vile would want another lycan dead, and another, until there are none. Even the children would die. Many children have already died. Vile would not have to fulfil anything. He keeps the souls of each one killed by the gas as well. They are powerful souls." Sabine swallowed down a dry throat. "...I do not know what Rhajul lost that Vile would bring back. But I know that if Rhajul is honest about what he really wants, I can help him. I can forgive him. If he helps us, if he is still a good person, I want to give him a second chance. Even if he asks for something impossible, I could probably do it. He just has to tell me."