Her initial thoughts for an answer had Sabine slowly shrink back into her cloak again. Her thoughts went swiftly back to the still-fresh memories of her torture. The constant fear and pain. And the way she was so angry at Arinette. She did not even realise that she was shuddering and crying until she had left Yerig without an answer for at least half a minute.

"I do not know," she whined under her cloak. She held her eyes shut and quietly cried further. "I was angry before. So angry. I could have destroyed her. Painfully. Cruelly. I could have kept going." She forced in two hard breaths. "I could have killed them all like that. I...I am scared. I do not want to become like that. I do not want to be a monster."