Never been one to overtly complain But I'll take just a moment to convey the disdain That I feel for the state of affairs in my brain As I write this, I feel only shame I constantly battle, there's always a fight And these rooms still seem dark when I turn on the lights Flying blinded Its as though I'm starving for life, but I've not had a bite. I'm my own worst enemy And no, I don't want your sympathy So please save your pity cause that comes too easily. Need someone to hear me, and take this to heart Just because I play strong doesn't mean that i don't fall apart I glide through existence, I feel like the ghost Of a boy that just wanted his manhood the most Now all he's become is this sad creature's host Is anyone listening? I'm desperately pleading I hate this damned feeling It feels like you're leaving Fists are clenched, palms are bleeding Soul is loud when its screaming I try to make up for it To carry alone This cross that I bare, born from lack of a home So I speak to my loved ones with a gentler tone Though I stay quiet, and they'd never know It feels like I've said these things over and over Though they've told me to talk and to cry on their shoulders Surrounded by love, but I feel all alone I'm just a misguided child that keeps growing older