"I do not want to kill them!" Sabine shouted out louder than expected. "You do not understand! If I killed them I would have been worse than them. I was so angry. I wanted to kill all of Vile's followers. I wanted to kill Do'rhajul and Yerig. I wanted to kill all the hunters. All the Imperial legion. All the Thalmor. I wanted to find Harriet and kill her. I wanted to find that vampire Neesa and kill her. I wanted to kill them all." She took a pause, breathing heavily. "Then I looked at Arinette when I held her in the air. Then realised I was like her. I wanted to make people suffer like they did to me. And I did not want to be like her. I do not want that. I do not want to be a monster. I do not want anyone I love to be a monster, either."

Sabine lifted her bleary eyes. "I do not want you to want to hurt them, Meesei. Please. Killing will not make the pain stop. I just want my mother."