[@13org]

You're blowing this way out of proportion. First off, this is hardly a dark setting. A student died, yes, but that's more to move the plot along and less a representative of how the RP is right now. Secondly, no one said they hated Lilac so I don't know where you get the idea of either the GMs or the other players doing so. From your words, it sounds like you have second doubts about just yourself or this one incident has incapacitated you to the point where you can't even RP. To that, I can't really help you since you're creating your own problems.

If you choose to leave, farewell then, but no one is making this a problem but you.