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Either way, it's something that I haven't figured out the place for in my life. It seems like it's kind of an extension of yourself, but for me, it feels like a tool that's hard to hold.
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I get what you're saying, though I can't say I've felt that way about anything. But every tool is hard to hold until you find the right way to grip it.