Mopey, frustrated, irritated, whiny, I don't care what word we use to describe it, there are negative emotions there. My point is that it's that kind of negative thinking that drives people away. The world is against you? You have more people drop out on you than anyone else? Says who? the 1x1 section is filled with incomplete roleplays, and the status bar always has a number of people complaining about their 1x1 woes. Trust me, you're not alone.

I mean, I haven't seen how you write. Maybe you really are the worst roleplayer I've ever seen. but there should still be people who are either in your skill range or can connect with you on a human level. That's why becoming people's friends is so important. Because you're writing stories with other people. I don't care if you're the best writer on the forum. If your personality grates on me, I won't want to write with you.

It really is just as easy or hard as being happy. That's not just a rule for roleplaying, it's a rule for life. If you learn how to mentally sort yourself out, you can radiate positive emotions that will attract people to you.

Also, maybe you're going at this wrong. Why not try group roleplays? GMs tend to be less picky about the people they get, as they need as many people as possible to make their ideas work. They don't always get off the ground, they don't always last more than a few weeks, but hey, it's a great way to get introduced to a bunch of people if you don't like the idea of PMing people.