Well I have been told of the negative emotion aspect before but I think to me i am not being negative at all because I'm expressing what I feel on the inside. In terms of me not being alone with the 1x1 woes I find it hard to believe but I'll try to get out of my own view while looking at it in a broader scope.
The reason I don't try group roleplays is because i have never done them before and i feel like i will be left behind if i ever step foot in one, in terms of being happy or miserable I had mentally sorted myself out and I still get stops and drops in roleplays and i find it frustrating so in a way while being truthful i am finding it hard to be happy while it feels nothing is going the way i want them to.