[b]Alicia Hayden[/b]

Alicia grinned, flush with victory as she vanquished one of Justine's servants. After everything that Justine had done, the people she had kidnapped, it was one step closer to getting some semblance of justice for those lost-

Any thought of that was wiped from her mind As Doris seemed to shake off some kind of stupor, her eyes widening in shock. But it was too late, there was no way to stop her forward motion as she stabbed the girl in the chest. She stumbled back from shock, releasing the blade and letting it fade away even as Doris collapsed and her Ice Golem melted into the snow. It even overwhelmed the sound of Penny's destruction, the explosion in the lake and debris being scattered all around. 

"No. No no nononono." Panic rising in her features, Alicia dropped to her knees as she stumbled forward to grasp at Doris' body with shaking hands. "Please don't. Stay with me. Stay with me!" Even as she said it she knew that it was too late. She wasn't a healer, there was nothing that she could do for a wound this severe. 

Ice clutched at her heart, threatening to strangle her. It took all that she had not to vomit from the realization that had been made in those few hectic moments. These girls, all of them. They were being controlled by Justine, not working for her voluntarily. And she hadn't once considered that, just done her best to cut them down. How could she have been so stupid? And now it was too late. Tears rolled down her cheeks as sobs seized her chest, head bowed as she pounded at the ground in self punishment for her idiocy. "I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry." 

It wasn't fair, and there was no way to fight the guilt that crashed down on her shoulders. Doris had been a magical girl like her, her own wishes, people who cared about her, and she had just torn that all away. How could she claim to be a member of Beacon, to be working for a better world, when she'd just killed someone without a second thought? In that eternity she only wished that she could take it all back, but that was never going to be that chance. she had to live with this, and hated herself for it.

She fell silent for a bit, teeth grinding with her fists still clenched as she released the sadness that she felt. Only when it occurred to her that the others didn't know this either did she speak up again. "Beckoner," she said without looking away from Doris. "If reinforcements are coming, now is the time. The path is clear. And tell them just to disable, not to kill the girls working for Justine. I think they can still be saved." 

Not that it would make up for this. She didn't think she could ever make up for what she had just done....