[@Zeroth]

 Yooo, don't beat yourself up. You're doing fine! 
 Being a gm/dm is exaughsting.  There's a reason almost every 'intro to roleplaying' tells you to be greatful to the one running the show.
 You're volluntering your hours to entertain us.
 And keeping such an open RP straight is like herding cats.

You have my respects.