[quote=The World]
No, you really don't get it. You don't have two things keeping you alive, a mental condition that requires everything to be a certain way in order to feel any comfort at all, a mother who doesn't give a shit about you, a grandfather who doesn't comprehend the gravity of situations, and you haven't lost one and a half of those two lifelines, permanently lost what allows you to feel any comfort at all, you aren't on the verge of being homeless, you aren't hated by all but two people you know, you aren't already dead in a body that keeps functioning, you haven't been given countless reasons to give up on everything and let it rot. You haven't fucking lost everything you cared about. So yes, killing myself will solve quite a few things. Fuck, tonight I'm trying ODing, so I've got 29 minutes of communication left IF this fucking connection holds up during that.
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Seriously, take a moment and stop. Things will be okay in the end, but ending it solves literally nothing. Take some time, take a deep breath, take a nap. Do something other than hurt or kill yourself.