ive seen to many good people die, good people, people close to me... my mom nearly died from a disease that the doctors couldnt explain, my father had a blood clot that nearly costed him his legs, hes lost all faith in me making any progress in life, my stepdad used to be an alcoholic and beat me and my mom, by brother was the only one to stand up for me but he ended up getting hurt whenever he tried... ive had too many of my friends die.. 2 in one year... im sick of people leaving.. of people dying... of feeling pain..