[center] [h3][color=a0410d] [b]Luke Godfrey

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What was he thinking? Why did he act that way? Could he finally be cracking? Was this deployment the final straw? Question after question ran through Luke’s mind as he stared up towards the sky, a puff of smoke escaping his mouth as he flicked a few ashes from his cigarette to the side. His nerves had calmed a bit, the constant barrage of questions help keeping his mind off of the shitshow he started with Diana and her tears.[color=a0410d] “Damn it,” [/color]he muttered before taking another drag from his cigarette. Everything was coming undone, all of his demons were finally creeping out from his mind and exposing themselves for the world to see. Coming here and going to war was suppose to be an escape from it all, it was going to be a new start of who he was. A small huff escaped him as it seemed things wouldn’t be working out like that.

Smoke left his lungs once more as he silently dwelled in his own frustrated mind, trying his best to relax and get his mind straight. He just needed to be alone, to think things through and figure out how he could make up for what he had caused. Unfortunately his silence was brought to and end as he was called a cunt by a familiar angry voice. A small sigh left him before he glanced to his left to see a clearly upset Victoria glaring down at him. [color=a0410d]“Great,” [/color]he muttered before looking back towards the city and listening to her speak, not wanting to meet her eyes. Thankfully it wasn’t another lecture as she questioned his him about his malfunction with Diana. He visibly flinched as she brought up Diana crying and frowned even deeper as his guilt began to rise back up into his chest. As she called him a ankle-biter, a first for insults for Luke, he lowered his head and rubbed the back of his neck.

Luke remained silent for a few seconds, his mind trying to come up with a answer to her questions. [color=a0410d]“I… I don’t…” [/color]he struggled to say anything at first before letting out another heavy sigh and speaking. [color=a0410d]“Look, I didn’t mean for things to go that far, alright? I snapped I guess,” [/color]he said with a tired voice before turning his head towards her, a bit of guilt in his eyes. [color=a0410d]“I didn’t try to make her cry on purpose, I would never do that. I mean I’ll start shit most of the time sure, but I wouldn’t try to bring someone to tears like that. I’m just... tired of being the reason people cry,” [/color]he stated, his mind slacking in keeping his emotions bottled up. Luke rubbed the back of his neck, uncomfortable in sharing his feelings like this. It’s been awhile since he’s actually been truthful about this sort of stuff. [color=a0410d]“I didn’t take and joy in seeing her cry. I felt terrible in fact, but I just couldn’t say anything. I froze,” [/color]he admitted before falling into a moment of silence, a bit of shame in his voice.

A heavy groan escaped Luke as he leaned his head back against the building and rubbed his face, exhausted in dealing with all of this crap. After taking another drag from his smoke he glanced her way and released the fumes from his nose before scoffing in bitter amusement. [color=a0410d]“What else do ya want me to say? I’m an ass? I’ve heard that one about a million times already, but if you’re here to lecture me on shit that I already know then don’t bother. You and the thousands of people before you have droned on about how much of a shithead I am and I honestly stopped caring,” [/color]he stated honestly as he flicked his cigarette away and stood up to face her, burying his hands into his pockets and hardening his gaze on her. [color=a0410d]“So if you have another lecture, hurry up and get it over with. If you wanna throw a punch, hurry up and throw it. If you have nothing else to say, then hurry up and fuck off back inside,” [/color]he finished before cracking his neck, preparing himself if she chose the second option. It’d cause more trouble with him and Jean sure, but he needed to blow off some steam anyways. Might as well take it out on someone able to handle it. 

[@Smike]