I'm really insecure about my body -- like [i]really[/i] insecure. 

There's thousands of outfits or articles of clothing that I have put back or am to scared to even buy, much less wear or try out, because of said insecurities. I know it sounds stupid, but my whole life I've sort of had the idea of 'thin is beautiful' pounded into my head. I call myself fat, when in retrospect I'm what people call thick? Idk. I think I'm fat. Thick didn't even exist until like last year that I know of. I guess I criticize myself so much that my mind has tricked itself into thinking that everyone else does to upon meeting/seeing me.