[quote=@GalaxyRaider]
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*Sighs*
It’s hard to be optimistic. It goes against personal history. But I don’t have a choice, because I don’t know what I’d do if I had to go through that again. Sometimes I even catch myself preemptively convincing myself of the worst.
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Have you considered trying to "fast-forward" through time so you don't have to wait?