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Shinji:
Because I am a MASSSIVE piece of shit who has murdered COUNTLESS people in the name of a self righteous government, I hurt anyone who cares about me and EVERYONE I LOVE EVENTUALLY DIES! Sometimes in my arms, even. Did I tell you my daughter was chopped up lazer wall style? That was nice to see.

*burps*
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Then wake up and realize that you're still here.
I'm not going to say that your life hasn't been a living hell, but you're also not a worthless bastered who's lost himself. You still have your heart, and your life is still yours to hold.
You haven't stuck around through all that to just kick the bucket, and it shows because there are still those that want to support you, however fucking flawed you may be.

....

I'm sorry about that...
You should probably take some time to rest.