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[color=D73BFF][i]If only...
Those must be the two saddest words in the world.[/i][/color][/center][right][sub][color=D73BFF]~Mercedes Lackey[/color][/sub][/right][/h2][/cell][/table][hr]

Hana sat in her hotel suite practicing her cello, the [url=https://youtu.be/Q2nHkX2t0SI]music[/url] escaping from deep within and emotion pouring into every note she played. The flowing sound twisted around her as it seemed to take her back in time, bringing forth memories of the past of Roxy all while tears fell from her eyes.

[indent][indent][i]A letter sat in Hana’s hand, a bouncing red-head sat besides her grinning at her. [color=C30000]”Go on open it! I’m sure it says how brilliant you are and how you are accepted!”[/color] Hana looked over to her friend as they sat together on a bench at a park. It had been Roxy who had convinced her to apply after her parents almost talked her out of it. Juilliard was her dream school and here was the letter telling her either she was accepted or denied.

[color=D73BFF]”W-what if I wasn’t Roxy? My parents will only rub it in my face and scold me. Then I’ll have to do some career I will never be happy in. I-”[/color]

[color=C30000]”Hana.”[/color] Roxy had interrupted the anxious girl, grabbing her hand and giving it a reassuring squeeze. [color=C30000]”You are amazingly talented so I know you are accepted. Besides no matter what happens I’ll always be here to support you. Everyone will have your back.”[/color] 

With a nervous nod and a small smile, Hana let her hand be released from Roxy’s grip and she shakily opened the envelope. From the envelope she removed the letter, as she unfolded it she squeezed her eyes shut, her heart pounding being the only sound she could hear. That was until a small squeal of excitement from her friend ripped through her anxiety and nerves causing the girl to snap her eyes open. 

Reading the letters first line a huge grin spread onto her face and she met eyes with Roxy who immediately pounced on the girl hugging her close. [color=C30000]”I TOLD YOU SO!”[/color] [/i][/indent][/indent]

The music came to an end and Hana opened her eyes, wishing to be in the past once again with her friend. Wishing that [i]if only[/i] things had gone differently and she had Roxy’s back just as well as Roxy had hers then maybe she would still be alive. Hana stood up and carefully put her cello away before going to get ready for the long night ahead.

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Right hand holding her left in front of her, her fingers playing with the rings on her left ring finger, Hana looked at the door to the bar in front of her. She knew what would be awaiting her behind the doors. Old faces, old friends, old memories. All in their own way a painful reminder of [i]’if only…’[/i]. All making her wonder how things could have been, but there was no way knowing. It was too late and that was what made it painful.

Taking a deep breath, Hana pushed the door open. The chime sounding her arrival. She made her way to the bar and sat down in a seat one away from the two men who were there. Once she sat down, Hana turned and looked to the men. She had been correct in her assumptions, these were her old friends. They were just much different than before. 

Just as if she was back in her highschool days, Hana fell into an awkward state of not knowing what to say. Finally Hana spoke two simple words, [color=D73BFF]”Hey guys.”[/color]