Occ: I think I need redemption or something. To many mistakes. Suicidal?

In a vision the white haired Wedding sat behind a desk looking at Moon in white Wedding's study. " Hello there Moon. I am what ever you proceed me to be. Some say I'm a figment of the mind, God, maybe God, not God, a cognition, or whatever. I assure you we are meeting. Your perception of reality might not actually be reality. I must be crazy you say? What if your reality is merely a simulation of something constructed on a vast system or something. Has it ever occurred to you how things just keep going wrong as if some invisible being is exploiting you? Rest assure Moon that all questions always have an answer. Answer me this where do you believe you are?", White hair Wedding said.