[hider=Suspiria Plasket] [Img]https://img.roleplayerguild.com/prod/users/33cceae6-b24c-44ea-b72b-fe965cf5e5b2.png[/img] [img]https://img.roleplayerguild.com/prod/users/b6480edb-5490-416f-bcb4-f41acb63bb09.jpg[/img] [h1][color=honeydew]╚══════════════╝[/color][/h1] [i][color=Honeydew][center]"The images are all so still,"[/center][/color][/i] [h3][color=Honeydew] [b]22[/b] | [b]5'10[/b] | [b]Caucasian[/b] | [b]Transgender Female; She/her[/b] | [b]133 lbs[/b] [/color][/h3] [Center][h1][i][color=Honeydew]"Oneiric"[/color][/i][/h1][/center] [h3][u][b][color=Honeydew] APPEARANCE [/color][/b][/u][/h3] [i][color=honeydew]"Once when I saw her there / White light, she stood so still"[/color][/i] [indent][indent]a tall and delicate looking woman, Suspiria has smooth white skin, reminiscent of a calla lily with cool undertones. Her complexion is smooth except for her nostrils and the tips of her ears, which have a rosy tint to them. Contrasting sharply with her fair skin, Suspiria has long, wavy sepia brown hair that cascades down her back. She prefers to keep it pinned up and braided. Suspiria has light green eyes and a dreamy expression on her face. She has small, thin lips but her expressive eyes are what draws most people's attention at first glance. She has very long, slender legs that seem to make up an unproportional amount of her body. She favors simple, modest clothes, but she does like little frills or decorations on the sleeves when it comes to blouses. Matching with her slender legs, Suspiria has willowy arms and long, nimble fingers. She wears small, silver bracelets on her arms and an anklet around her right foot. She likes to wear long skirts that are usually a shade darker than her tops and a pair of nice leather sandals. She is usually seen dressed in some bohemian or hipster like fashion, but she doesnt tend to draw much attention to it. [/indent][/indent] [h3][u][b][color=Honeydew] PSYCHOLOGY [/color][/b][/u][/h3] [i][color=honeydew]"Dreams, memories, lives; what's the difference again?"[/color][/i] [indent][indent][indent] [b][Color=honeydew]MAIN GOAL ⫻[/color][/b] Suspiria wants to feel like she belongs somewhere. She is almost too willing to please others and wants more than anything to be loved and accepted by those around her. She wants to feel useful and validated. [b][color=Honeydew]PHILOSOPHY ⫻[/color][/b] Suspiria is a humanist and believes in the advancement of humanity. She always wants to see the goodness of others. Redemption is something she deeply believes is truly possible. Others might write her off as being idealistic or a romantic of the human condition, but the way she sees it, everyone has at least an ounce of good in them and a story to tell. [b][color=honeydew]SECRETS ⫻[/color][/b] Suspiria doesnt like to think she keeps any secrets, but in reality she is a very private person. She is hesitant to disclose that she's a foster child or that she's transgender. She also doesnt like to admit whenever someone's hurt her feelings, though it's fairly obvious when someone does. [b][color=honeydew]SEXUALITY ⫻[/color][/b] She's not quite sure, she's open minded and has fallen for people from all walks of life. However she's not sure how deep she's fallen in love with a person and whether her love extends past platonic affections. [b][color=honeydew]FEARS ⫻[/color][/b] Suspiria fears driving away the people she loves from her. Highly perfectionistic, she hates it when she fails at anything and takes it very harshly. She also doesn't want to feel useless or incompetent. For more concrete fears, big dogs and public speaking make her shiver. [b][color=honeydew]REPUTATION ⫻[/color][/b] Suspiria has that "girl next door" vibe. Quite a few might have heard her name tossed around here or there, but not many have seen her face. She tends to keep to herself and is quite introverted. She frequents the library often though, so most might assume her to be a bookworm of some variety. [b][color=honeydew]QUIRKS ⫻[/color][/b] She likes leeches and crustaceans a lot. She keeps them as pets. [b][color=honeydew]FLAWS ⫻[/color][/b] She is easily persuaded to do things and doesn't have self confidence. She is afraid to act on her own intuition and doesn't trust her hunches. She can miss the big picture by getting caught up in the small details. Suspiria can also get wrapped up in her own emotions and let that cloud her judgement. [/indent][/indent][/indent] [h3][u][b][color=honeydew] BACKSTORY [/color][/b][/u][/h3] [i][color=Honeydew]"Only once have I been made mute, it was when a man asked, 'Who are you?'"[/color][/i] [indent][indent]Suspiria had an unstable childhood, to say the least. Her life featured many revolving households as she grew up in the foster care system. Her mother had her in high school and financially and emotionally, couldn't care for her. Originally it was supposed to be a temporary fix until her parents could demonstrate that they could handle rearing a child, but they never contacted the state or Suspiria's current foster parents to get her back. And thus she drifted in the foster care system for years on end, never understanding why her parents gave her up or if she’d ever get to see them again. It might have been the fear of retaliation from the child she gave away or the idea that she was more comfortable living with another family, that fueled the negligence on her mother’s part. Either way, the shame of giving her away ironically kept her from reclaiming her, instead deciding to ignore the issue altogether and resume her life as though nothing had ever happened. The lack of a parental figure in her life and a stable family made it difficult for her, emotionally. Being separated at a young age from her parents was the foundation for most of Suspiria’s self-esteem issues. She felt utterly alone during this time. At first, she didn’t understand why she was always being passed along between different families except for, as the small inkling of a thought in the back of her head suggested, the idea that perhaps, she was always doing something wrong so she had to leave. As she grew older, she understood that this wasn’t the case, but the shadow of doubt always lingered and on occasion, this sorrow would engulf her. She was always rather shy and the lack of consistency in her life caused her to withdraw from social activities. She focused primarily on academics and measured her self worth in grades. She knew with her regular moving that it would be easy to fall behind, so she put in the extra effort not to at the cost of friendships. However, being in so many different family arrangements, it made her open-minded and tolerant of different people. She became self-reliant and independent because she had to be, but she never wanted to become cold and hardened to the world around her. Her academic interests were geared towards STEM careers. She excelled in math and algebraic thinking, as well as hard sciences such as chemistry and biology. What she wants her dream job to be changes over time, but currently she wants to be a marine biologist. Not one that works out in the deep oceans, but one that focuses on local organisms, especially mollusks and small crustaceans. It was during this time when she was a sophomore in high school that she began to explore more of her own identity. Originally she was born male, and her name was Fillan. She always had long hair and used to speak in a quiet, low voice. She never quite felt comfortable with her own body or the very notion of masculinity, and never had many male friends growing up. Due to a lack of knowledge about LGBTQ+ and her nature of passively accepting society's gender norms and standards, she persisted as a male for virtually all of her childhood. It wasn't until she was in mid-teenage years that she began to seriously consider that she might be transgender. She took cautious steps at first and didn't come out to everyone. Even though she knew in her heart of hearts that she was a woman, she was very confused and unsure of how to go about it. She had to reach out to her closest friends at the time for advice on her dilemma and they helped her with her gradual transition. She moved out to Araminta to continue her dreams of exploring environmental science and possibly achieve her goal of becoming a marine biologist. Besides that, Araminta was an appealing town to visit because of it's small size and charming sights. She didn't enjoy the deep religiousness of the town at first, but has gotten used to it. The one event that has shaken her to her very core and even made her question whether or not she should even stay in town was the moths. Swarms of them. While trying to drive down to the library, she was caught in traffic. Terrible, congested traffic. Which is highly unusual for for a town of this size. Wondering what on earth was holding things up, she craned her neck and looked out the window. At first, she thought it was a cloud. Then she saw the silhouettes of what she could only assume were bodies being lifted into the air. And the deafening beating of what seemed like a billion tiny wings. She couldn't believe her eyes. It was like something out of a nightmare. Not feeling safe to leave her car, she curled up in the backseat until she couldn't hear the swarm anymore. She screwed her eyes up tight and tried to will herself to wake up. Almost like it began, it all ceased. She didn't know how, but it seemed as though she was spared. It only seemed like a few souls remained in the deserted street. Vehicles were upended and overturned but there was no trace of anyone inside. To this day, she still thinks about this event, but she hasn't heard a word spoken about it by anyone else. And surely she figured that some disaster of biblical proportions would be on the news? But it was not. It must have been a dream after all. [/indent][/indent] [h3][u][b][color=honeydew] SKILLS & TALENTS [/color][/b][/u][/h3] [i][color=honeydew]"Knowledge is power"[/color][/i] [indent][indent][indent] [b][color=Honeydew]Optimism's a skill, right? ⫻[/color][/b] Suspiria looks on the bright side of things. She isn't really a downer and tries to lift other's spirits up as well. [b][color=honeydew]Erudite Past times ⫻[/color][/b] Suspiria considers herself something of a scholar. She knows a lot about different topics ranging from the scientific process to old fairytales and folklore (something she looks up in her past time to try to *fact check* the cheesy horror movies she watches all the time on Comet) She's a bit of a geek, so she knows a lot of niche information that more often than not, has no practical usage. [/indent][/indent][/indent] [h3][u][b][color=honeydew] EXTRA-NORMAL ABILITIES [/color][/b][/u][/h3] [i][color=honeydew]"No tarot cards could preordain the future you and I will hold,"[/color][/i] [indent][indent] [S]404 Not Found[/s] [/indent][/indent] [h3][u][b][color=honeydew] OTHER [/color][/b][/u][/h3] [i][color=honeydew]"Forgetfulness is a form of freedom"[/color][/i] [indent][indent][youtube]https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1Ogfd4YEL0&feature=share[/youtube][/indent][/indent] [/hider]