[quote=@Scrivener]
In truth I would rather die alone. I have no intention of having children, marriage is out of the question, and my family and I have been at odds for years. And I’m too antisocial too maintain strong, long term friendships-relationships. I am at piece with dying alone.
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I need to learn to be okay with it like that. I'm also really antisocial but I'd still give anything to be in a relationship. I guess you gotta build the foundations first by making a bunch of friends, which I can't do. I would be so happy if there was just one person I connected with and could hang out with all the time. I don't need more than one. But I don't think that's gonna happen.