Flinching at his words she knew she had lied to him, betrayed his trust but she wasn’t here to get him to like her again. She didn’t want him to let his guard down because she knew she had already completely messed things up, something that she would regret for the rest of her life. [color=f49ac2]“I…”[/color] Sighing softly as she sat down on the opposite side of his cell using the wall to lean against. [color=f49ac2]“I don’t expect you to just forget what I did nor do I expect you to let your guard down. What I did is unforgiveable and something I will have to live with.”[/color] 

Looking over at the bowl of food she had placed down with the glass she caught site of the discarded one kicked aside, and she knew it had to be Ethan. She could see the blanket thrown to the other side of the room and a part of her wanted to give it to him, but she stopped herself not wanting to make things worse between them. [color=f49ac2]“I just want to show you that not every rebel or civilian on this side of the Capital is horrible, or a terrorist.”[/color] [color=f49ac2][i]That’s not it, but I can’t tell him I still have feelings for him because he will think I am lying. I’ve lost his trust.[/i][/color] 

[color=f49ac2]“It’s not much, just food and water. I’m not a savage.”[/color] Whispering her words as she ran fingers through her hair, the sleeve of her top shifted revealing finger mark bruises around her wrist from the way Ethan had grabbed her the night of his kidnapping. 

[color=f49ac2]“I know I messed up greatly Cas, I know I’m beyond redemption, beyond forgiveness but again I never lied about my feelings. That was not an act.”[/color] She knew it would be hard to believe her, but there was no sense of dishonesty in her voice because she was not lying. [color=f49ac2]“I never wanted to hurt you… Although I know I have.”[/color] Lowering her head in shame as she focused her gaze on her feet, [color=f49ac2]“I panicked when I found out the truth. Ethan told me that you’d have me killed, then you caught those two rebels who were there to rescue me. I thought that you would maybe release them, punish them of course, but the death sentencing… I forgot who I was. I was convinced that the only option was to leave, or I’d be killed. I was vulnerable and Ethan managed to convince me that kidnapping you would be for the best. That it would make up for me cheating on him because I did have a boyfriend.”[/color] 

Placing her head in her hands not even sure that opening up would help, that he would even care about it and her reasons for why she had done what she did. [color=f49ac2]“All I can say is I’m sorry. I… I know it’s not good enough.”[/color] Stuttering on her words slightly because she had faltered, [color=f49ac2][i]I was never good enough for you anyway[/i][/color]. [color=f49ac2]“Just… try to eat. Keep your strength up so that when the military do find you, they at least have a Prince to take back.”[/color] [color=f49ac2][i]They will find him, hopefully within a few days. I don’t doubt their abilities. Maybe then it will be an end to this war, to this miserable life. [/i][/color]