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Hello friends, 

Seeing as many of us are stuck in quarantine, or wish to distract ourselves, I thought I would add a thread on roleplay discussion. This one is about confessions. [b]Which character(s) have you made that, if you step back, are the most like yourself in reality, and why?[/b] Granted, I'm no fan of the eponymous or what might be called "Author Avatars" which are essentially self insert characters. This thread is not for those. 

Roleplaying is generally about creating people whom you are not, so you may experience things you don't have the time, money, or energy to do in the normal world (or you're just a coward). And in doing so, we tend to make many different characters for many different situations. But if you were to step back and look at the characters you've created, which do you think you can see the most of yourself in? List the character(s) and give your reasoning!

After thinking on it, is it a character you didn't expect? Is it perhaps one of your darker characters? Does it make you think on what that means for yourself? 
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There's a method to the madness that is my character creation process. Sometimes, I will take bits and pieces of myself and apply them to stereotypes/tropes that I find interesting. Maybe I have someone who fits the bill of a wild child but want to connect to them more, so I'll add a splash of my personality to spice them up. 

But there was one case where I self-inserted myself into the character. And his name is Brent Walsh. I drew from my insecurities growing up, the torment of being overweight and how that made me a target for harassment. I drew upon my personality and how there were certain people I refused to give a second chance. I drew upon how I would have lived my life differently and how I would probably be in a better place mentally had I done certain things. 

This is the one character of mine that is the closest version of myself in one singular character I've made. The others, though there were traces of Brent in them (at least in spirit), have never been so condensed of myself like Brent is.

Now that I think back on him, he wasn't a failure of a character. I just...whenever criticisms or debates came up with him being at or near the center of it, I took a lot of it personally. Even if I didn't intend for this to happen, I felt, in a way, triggered by certain topics and I reacted to them horribly.