Seeing Alix sleepily open the study door, Josh couldn’t help but smile. Only Alix could nap in moments like these.

"I don't want you to leave."

“Then I won’t,” Josh replied. 

A sense of dread and fear lifted from his shoulders. Maybe, just maybe there will be an end to all of this where Alix could forgive him.

"But is going to the Police such a good idea? From what I remember, you stated lunatics and bad men. Doesn't sound like they'd enjoy you going to the Police station, does it?" Alix continued.

“Bloody hell Alix! What do you want me to do?” Josh snapped back in desperation. “I can go kill them if that is what you want.” 

Josh paused momentarily. It was a thought that hadn’t occurred to him. The thing is he had completed far harder missions in the past ten years. It wasn’t like he had to murder every Mafia member this side of the channel, just a handful of senior leaders will cause the Russians to rip themselves apart. 

“Look we can just pack our bags, grab the kids and disappear.” Which was the option he preferred but then he had nothing to lose, while his wife would lose her family, friends and job overnight.

“But the most important thing Alix, can you still love me?” He asked. “Because I can’t live with the woman I love if she sees me as a monster.”