Trying to avoid his gaze she didn’t want him to see the hurt in her eyes because she felt shameful over the fact, she had gotten her hopes up for a brief second. It was foolish of her to get her hopes up over him and the idea of them being together. She was a fool and she felt the stab at her heart with his words. [color=f49ac2][i]I’m such a fool. I should never have said anything, I should never have thought it could work or even got my hopes up[/i][/color]. The deafening thoughts made her feel heavy and everything was beginning to weigh down on her as the thoughts continued to spiral. 

Although he told her not say it and although his words spoke about how she had been a better woman than anyone he met it fell on deaf ears. All she could focus on was the fact she was not good enough and that she would never be good enough for him. Feeling her lower lip tremble as she tried to push back the immense amount of emotions she felt as she didn’t want to break in front of him. Blinking away any hint of tears she tried to keep herself calm but with the high fever still apparent it was hard to keep them under control as much as she tried. [color=f49ac2][i]I am not good enough, no matter what he says I will never be good enough for him. Who was I kidding? After everything I have done to him too, of course he wouldn’t want to be with me. Of course, I’m not good enough.[/i][/color] 

With her eyes downcast she could see the food now set in her lap from him and looking at the food only sent another wave of nausea through her. Focusing her little energy to keeping herself composed she could already feel herself growing weaker at the effort. Trembling in her place she looked at the food biting her lip she sighed, knowing deep down she could eat but she had no appetite for the food. All appetite had been lost and even the idea of drinking water made her feel sick. [color=f49ac2][i]No. I won’t be finishing this, I can’t bring myself to anymore[/i][/color]. Thinking to herself as she looked between the food and the bottle of water she had been given. Shaking her head, she moved putting the plate onto the coffee table with shaky hands before settling herself back onto the sofa. 

The heat was too much and without even thinking it through she tossed the blanket to one side sighing heavily. As much as she knew how right he was, that it would be easier if they didn’t get too caught up with one another because parting would only be harder, she still hated to hear it. The way her heart longed for him wasn’t healthy and if they had become close once more the parting would be worse. Unable to find any words for him she didn’t speak, she just let him distance himself and busy himself as she tried not to look like she was moping on the sofa heartbroken.