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[url=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6BwAWiHcSg][color=gray][i]When you said your last goodbye
I died a little bit inside
I lay in tears in bed all night
Alone without you by my side[/i][/color][/url]

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[indent][indent]Between the amount of time she spent on the dirty bathroom floor, frozen in her despair, lamenting on how fucked up her life just became, Joanna was a wreck. She played back the conversation over and over in her head like it was a broken record, trying to pinpoint exactly when it was she messed up, trying to figure out what she could have done differently, what things she should have said instead of what left her lips. Everything that had been said she wanted to take back. If there was ever a time she wished time travel existed, it would be now.

As she sat there, head resting against the sink, her head throbbing and eyes more watered down than gender equality in male-dominated workplaces. The on-point makeup had run down her face, past her lips, and dripped onto her shirt. She was still sobbing, voice cracking as she repeated Lottie’s name like she was calling out to angels, praying to the god she didn’t believe in to rewind the last thirty minutes of her life, desperate for a do-over, yearning with a desire to make it right.

But it didn’t come. No guardian angel telling her it was all going to be okay nor did God answer her prayers. Of course she didn’t. [color=be9cdc]“Of course,”[/color] she muttered in a low, thick voice riddled with sorrow. 

The usually bubbly girl finally came face to face with the monster that broke Lottie’s heart. She saw how pathetic she looked, the way her tears and mascara molded together, the rainbow that had a deceitful light in them. She was a snake, a confusing, glittery snake who couldn’t make anyone happy. Everything she touched: Lottie, Jade, they all eventually would leave. This monster’s ride or die was the first to distance themself. So how long would it be until the soccer star would?

She rolled out about ten sheets of paper towels and looked down at the sink, putting her hand under the motion sensor fountain. The lukewarm water coated her hands and with the help of soap and patience, she started the process of attempting to clean off her makeup. 

Five minutes later, Joey looked like someone who hadn’t just had her entire world crushed. Broken as she was, at least she could play pretend again. At least she could break the rust on the fake smile she hadn’t been forced to use in nearly four years, not since her sweet sixteen. She could put on the show that everyone expected from her anyway.

The manic pixie had arrived at Meadow View. At last, her wings will spread again.[/indent][/indent][/color]