Welcome back, [@A Man Is No One]! First and foremost, I need to say you're wrong. We [i]do[/i] care. I can speak for several people who have more than once proven how much they care about our community and its members. And I can guarantee you these people and I care that you're at the edge, and I'm glad you resorted to an old coping skill. I'm going to suggest you also join our discord server where you can socialize with us in real time, and we have a channel to ask for specific role-plays so you might get lucky if you try there. Unfortunately I don't know any rps in the genre you're looking for, but I wish you luck.
Remember, if you're not alive you can't watch your kid grow, and when pain is too much sometimes it helps to think of someone else and how much they'd suffer without us. It makes it harder.

Best of luck to you, let me know if you need someone to talk to, you can always send me a PM to vent if you want. Our discord server is also a good place to vent and get support, people there are awesome in that regard.