[@Pilatus] I couldn't have said it better myself. This RP, through all of it's versions with this core group, has been the exception to every rule I had previously learned from this hobby.

When I came back to this site it was solely with the intention to run a Fallout game that I had been cooking for over a year. I had heard that this game was struggling, and had the urge to try and help it thrive, but I didn't know if I could manage two games, this wasn't my game anymore, and I didn't want to step on anyone's toes...so I stayed away. When I saw that it had been revitalized with you in the driver's seat I couldn't help my excitement. You and I kind of passed each other like ships in the night as you were coming in to fill your limited role as I was saying goodbye. But Alma had spoken so highly of you and I watched as the two of you took everything to greater heights than I could. So...the hook worked its way into my cheek lol. 

Regarding my explanation of Nathan's mutation. It was pointed out to me that it came off as patronizing. I didn't see that at first, as that was not intentional at all, but after re-reading it 30+ times I definitely see it now, and I'd like to apologize for that. In my head it was this fun, educational post that I felt highlighted something that I feel gets forgotten often in this hobby. In reality it come off as condescending and my tendency to over explain did not help its overall tone. 

I love this group, I love this game, and I very much love the character of Nathan. I thank you for giving your approval for the character and apologize for not initially fleshing his abilities out in the CS as I should have when transitioning him from an NPC to a PC. It was presumptuous of me to simply assume that it wouldn't be necessary. 

I'm realizing that perhaps this new version of the game was meant to simply thrive without my involvement. I feel like the moment I jumped back into the group I unintentionally caused tension and that sucks. I'm probably over thinking the shit out of this (I wonder where Nathan gets it from lol) but maybe the game being marked as "Full" was a sign that The New Era is transitioning into a new era (ha, wordplay) where I am just not part of it. We are all grown ass people with lives and responsibilities...and we don't have time for tension or weird feelings about the things we love. If feel as though I caused tension and that definitely gave me weird feelings. I genuinely don't like the vibe I put out throughout all of this and so I think I'm just going to walk away from the project out of respect for you guys (which I consider legit friends) and put my energy into building something new. If ever the time comes that I am truly needed to return to this RP in some capacity we'll see what happens, but for now it is in such good hands and has progressed so much since my time here that it has simply outgrown me. Much love to all of you guys.