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Shinji:

Fair enough, I suppose...

*looks to you*

..  to be completely honest with you.... I don't really want to die. Not alone, at least. I want to mean something to someone, not just metaphorically. I... I want purpose again..... thats why I felt that I needed to die. Becuase I have no purpose left to serve....
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*Sits down on the floor.*

Not gonna lie, I've been there... sort of. Part of me is so bitter and worn down that to just go to sleep and never wake up would be half a blessing. But I don't want to go out with a whimper, I want to go out with a [i]bang[/i].
*Makes a finger gun and shoots it in time with my last word.*

And so I've just flat out refused to die or off myself up to this point, because even if life hurts, I've still got my fighting spirt and a desire to at least make something of this mess.

But the tricky part that follows is probably what you're struggling with, albeit in the opposite direction. Finding purpose. To keep living without direction is hard, and to find your own is even harder.

So far, the only solution I've found is to stand on some part of yourself, some key part of your identity, so that you can keep your footing until you find purpose.

*Chuckles and looks into the distance.*

Of course, everyone is different, so what works for me might not work for others. And so this process, inner world and all, is ment to help you find your own solution, one that [i]does[/i] work for you.