[quote=@souleaterfan320] shinji: what if... *looks up* ..nevermind.... I've already tried living for others. It doesnt work... I need to live for myself. But how.... thats the question.... *looks to you, then looks to the ground* When you've fucked up as much as I have, and as severely as I have, its hard to go back. And with every issue I have.... I could be jn here forever.... the only thing keeping me sane is you, and to be truthful, sometimes i often wonder if I just made you up. [/quote] Dude, if going back in any form was an option, for either those broken by an experience or those worn down to their wits, you'd see a lot less people searching for therapists. *Sighs.* But reality is, you can only go from stable to worse and back again if fractured is the farthest you go. Once you cross over into broken, the best you'll ever return to is cracked. ... For reference, that was an analogy comparing a concrete foundation to ones mental heath, not descriptors of sanity. Minor tangent aside, it would be pretty stupid to keep you here until you solved each of your issues. Would take [i]waaaaaay[/i] too damn long, since it's practically a lifelong journey without a definitive end. I can't exactly quantify with words what I'm looking for, but it will likely help you stay on your mental feet regardless, even when you want to wallow in misery ... Also, do you really think you could imagine half the words that have poured from my mouth?