[hider=Nik Zabrecky || Liberty High {TW: self-harm, suicide, ED, mental illness & transgender identity issues}][center][img]https://i.imgur.com/5ogDIiq.png[/img] [img]https://i.imgur.com/KO4iPuu.png[/img][/center] [url=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wpJYQf5uJ4w&list=OLAK5uy_kf2mr4s7G3ErS-ruCXgDFFwY8HyHQijfA&ab_channel=MyChemicalRomance-Topic][img]https://i.imgur.com/rLdjPRq.png[/img] [right][img]https://i.imgur.com/Ir3LMGO.png[/img][/right][/url] [color=FFEFD5][color=E9967A]Name[/color] [indent]Nikolai Ian Zabrecky[/indent] [color=E9967A]Nickames[/color] [indent]Nik or Niki, these are prefered to Nikolai[/indent] [color=E9967A]Age[/color] [indent]16[/indent] [color=E9967A]Gender[/color] [indent]Non-binary, assigned male at birth[/indent] [color=E9967A]Sexuality[/color] [indent]Pansexual[/indent] [color=E9967A]Relationship Status[/color] [indent]Never-been-kissed single virgin by day Secretly talking to a Rosefell boy in DMs by night[/indent] [color=E9967A]Label[/color] [indent]The Quiet One/Misfit[/indent] [color=E9967A]Appearance Details[/color] [list][*][b]Hair:[/b] Shoulder-length salted caramel waves [*][b]Eyes:[/b] Brown [*][b]Height:[/b] 5’10 [*][b]Body Type:[/b] Thin and lanky, sometimes to an unhealthy extent [*][b]Clothing Style:[/b] Niki’s style could be described as somewhat bohemian with a preference for oversized clothes in neutral colors that hide their body. A trained eye could tell that they certainly have a taste for fashion, but they are holding themselves back from truly expressing themselves with it. That trained eye would be correct in this assumption, as Nik really enjoys the culture of fashion and follows many models, brands, and trends on social media. They even have a sewing machine that they have tried to make their own clothes on before… but none of these pieces have seen the light of day. Not yet, at least. [*][b]Makeup Wise:[/b] They want to wear it publicly but thus far have only done so with tinted chapsticks and barely there nude eyeshadows. In the safety of their bedroom, though, they experiment with colors and trying to recreate looks that they find on Instagram. [*][b]Scars, Tattoos and/or Piercings:[/b] Nik occasionally wears a septum ring and has a scar on their left eyebrow from an old piercing that healed over. Nik also has a collection of self-inflicted scars along their forearms and thighs which they keep hidden under long sleeves, even in the warmer months.[/list] [color=E9967A]Personality Traits[/color] [center][sup][b][i][color=E9967A]{{[/color] GENUINE [color=E9967A]•[/color] INSECURE [color=E9967A]•[/color] OBSESSIVE [color=E9967A]•[/color] OPEN-MINDED [color=E9967A]•[/color] EFFEMINATE [color=E9967A]•[/color] IMAGINATIVE [color=E9967A]•[/color] ANXIOUS [color=E9967A]}}[/color][/i][/b][/sup][/center] [indent]Niki typically goes through life as a wallflower, quietly blending in with baggy clothes in muted colors. They don’t want to be noticed, not really. If someone does happen to notice them, that person will find a kind hearted and open-minded individual, despite their brokenness, perhaps even because of it. Silent and introverted, Nik much prefers listening to talking, especially now that their voice has grown deeper, which they don’t like to hear out loud. Regardless of insecurities, listening to others’ thoughts and ideas and feelings has always been better than dwelling on one's own struggles. The teen’s quiet nature can make them seem aloof and stoic, but they are by no means judgemental or closed off, they’re just… in their own head a lot of the time. Those closest to Niki know that they will fight more to support their friends than they ever would fight for themself. This combination of traits makes a Niki a hard friend to make, but a wonderful friend to have and keep.[/indent] [color=E9967A]Biography[/color] [indent]It was obvious to Nikolai’s parents from a very young age that their son was different. On christmas he asked for both Tonka trucks and Barbie dolls. He would go outside and catch bugs and then come inside to play princess dress up with his older sister. Kids can be like that sometimes, so his parents didn’t think much of it. The other children didn’t seem to mind, so why should they, if Nikolai was doing what made him happy? When Nikolai was in late elementary and early middle school, things grew more complicated. The girls in his class started wearing make-up and giggling about bras and boys. Nik wanted to be like them, so he talked to his parents about this and, because they loved him, his mother took him to the store and picked out some makeup and training bras. Nik proudly wore these things to school the next day. At first, everything went unnoticed by his peers. The makeup was subtle, and the bra hidden safely under his shirt. Nik was confident and happy, feeling pretty, like he had always wanted to feel. This happiness was short lived, however, as adolescents tend to ostracize those who stray from the social norm. Niki dared to wear a dress after convincing his mother that it would be okay, and that his friends said it would be fine. It [i]wasn’t[/i] okay, and those ‘friends’ laughed at him. Nikolai was brutally bullied by his fellow students, physically by the boys and socially by the girls. He quickly became a social outcast, labeled ‘freak’ and ‘gay’ and whatever other unclever nicknames the kids had cooked up on any particular day. The bullying grew so intense that Nik’s parents had to relocate the whole family so that their child could attend a different school and have a brand new start at Liberty High for freshman year of high school. Unbeknownst to them, it was already too late, the internal damage had been done. Nikolai had become a different person; Their once bright and colorful child had faded to grey. The criticisms of his peers had become his own, yet amplified. The older he got, the less he felt like a he… but not completely like she, either. They became they, and they became no one. A new school did little to improve Nik’s quality of life. They went to class and did their homework, because they had to. They came home and sat alone in their room, avoiding their parents and what few friends they had still managed to keep. Sometimes they would stare at the full length mirror behind their door for hours, a black sharpie in hand that they used to draw X’s above all of the flaws in their reflection. No one is sure when those markered X’s on the mirror turned into razor kisses on their skin, but they did. Niki intentionally picked out and wore baggy clothing to hide the scars and marks, and also to camouflage their body. This downhill spiral of unseen psychological warfare and battles with self-harm led to where these struggles unfortunately sometimes do lead. Halfway through the spring semester of their sophomore year, Nik switched directions and intentionally cut deeper. Whether it was the sight of so much blood, or the sheer loss of it, Niki passed out almost immediately. They awoke in a hospital bed, confused and bandaged up with a very forlorn looking mother and father staring back at them. After a period of physical healing, Nik was checked into Treewit Psychiatric Hospital for Adolescents, where they were diagnosed with and treated for depression and anxiety related to Gender Dysphoria and disordered eating related to Body Dysmophic Disorder. Their grades were good enough that they didn’t have to repeat sophomore year, but they did not return to Liberty High to take their final exams, and instead took them from their facility. Nik was released from Treewit midway through summer vacation where they spent most of their time healing and focusing on their hobbies: crafting, sewing, reading fantasy novels, and spending way too much time on the internet. Niki only met with his closest friends from Liberty High during the summer, who informed them that their school was closing and they’d be headed to Rosefell High in the fall instead. As for all of Niki’s other peers and classmates, they have not interacted with them since the day before Nik’s brush with death and mysterious disappearance from school. This will, no doubt, be a topic of gossip when they finally do return to the school halls. Or maybe… nobody but Nik’s best friends even noticed that they were gone.[/indent] [color=E9967A]Family[/color] [indent]Mother — [url=https://hips.hearstapps.com/ell.h-cdn.co/assets/16/31/1470521940-elle-diane-kruger.jpg]Anna Zabrecky[/url] (Wedding Planner) | Father — [url=https://i.guim.co.uk/img/media/84b05d70ac55329ad4f25c5d14556b7a5623bace/0_736_4904_2942/master/4904.jpg?width=1200&height=1200&quality=85&auto=format&fit=crop&s=43b2129ce89c1d342fa27a00fecb41d3]Bernard Zabrecky[/url] (Accountant) | Sister — TBA[/indent] [color=E9967A]Misc.[/color] [indent][list][*] Transgender — Niki currently prefers they/their pronouns because their gender identity is still undetermined and non-binary. [*] Overly self critical — This sometimes manifests physically in the form of nail biting, skin picking, and other self-harming behaviors. [*] Mirrors — Nik is either obsessively looking in them to analyze their reflection, or obsessively avoiding them in shame of their own appearance. [*] Disordered eating — Niki goes through bouts of complete avoidance of food as a means to cope with their discontent in their own body. It is not that Niki sees themself as overweight, it is the incessant recurring negative thoughts about their own body being imperfect and mismatched that pushes Nik to change it. As plastic surgery isn’t an option yet, eating is something that Niki can and does limit to alter their appearance. [*] FC: Stav Strashko | CC: [color=E9967A]E9967A[/color] | Font: Whitelist[/list][/indent][/color] I love literally everything about Halloween, my favorite thing is probaby watching all kinds of spooky shows/movies during october.[/hider]