Well Raven, I can appreciate the words that you have said with getting that frustration feeling as to me it feels like no one does and was alone in that aspect. I feel like I can't accept it as ghosting is dishonorable in my eyes, what the person has done was hype up interest only to bail and it makes me feel used in a sense of their twisted enjoyment.

It's hard to have like confidence in my work. I haven't asked if my post was either good enough or okay though in the back of my mind I have wondered about it, and it is coming off those dead RP's I have talked about and also seeing people are not interested in my stuff just causes doubts if anyone liked my stuff from the start considering what I have been through.

I feel like why continue to put myself out there when experience and interest hasn't shown me much in the scope of things? Also from the first site I was at [which you can't search for no one now, you can be ghosted, ignored or even blocked for asking] it just puts me on frustration from this experience and the feeling of unrelation for me is going to be there. I feel I have to take RP's seriously because of this and I don't have time of anyone dishonorable that ghosts or would remove someone for doing so.

And in terms of like showing off the best at what I got, it is like why do that when interest isn't big or even there? I feel like I have to be guarded and with my info and interests because of the little interest I have gotten despite being as varied as possible. It is just tiring to see my efforts not panning out over and over as it just chips away at my muse.

[Had to step away for moment due to a problem so trying to catch up and post what i feel.]