[@Tuujaimaa] Well like you said it is a fair question to ask. My answer and reply to you is that I don't think my viewpoint is incorrect based on the experiences I had and feel like I need to defend myself from people that never gone through the pain to me of having the amount of RP's dead within a year at all.

I feel like I have to constantly fight for my side to be heard without feeling like I am valid to feel what I feel or say what I say without past experiences of people wanting to jump on me about it and then bury it/hide it like some sort of skeleton from the closet that they don't want out.