What “Feels” to me is what it is Ammo. To me, I feel no one gets these hurdles as for every advice I have taken in order to deal with the hurdle it either doesn't work or there is another hurdle behind that. In comparison to other people, it seems like to me no one else to me is seeing it from how I am seeing it.

And that crude idiom you said and stated, I don't think that is my fault at all when it is those who dishonorably ghosts people that has me feeling what I feel. And I am not a bad person to talk to at all, that I feel is completely false.

I feel my perspective is right to me at least. From my viewpoint I feel so strongly about it, it could also be the passion I have for wanting to roleplay and to be on the same playing field as everyone else because I feel like I have been shafted over and over again and anything I have done to not be shafted again hasn't worked out at all. Honestly I do want to change this bad RP luck of mine and change it for good and I feel the only way to do that is for people to understand my side of things without them literally want to stab me [in relation of the surrounded swords picture] and to feel like my voice matters and to be on that equal ground with everyone else and to have a fair shot with a partner instead of being passed up on and worst thing, ghosted on again.