I know this is a side thing and all, but I wonder is it bad for me to feel what I feel and express given my experiences? 
Considering every time I express the frustration I am feeling it seems like at first no one gets it. It's hard for me to feel like the accomplishment of a RP being started let alone of it being maintained when there is little to no interest for my IC and coupled with the feeling of being left behind at the “starting gates” while others are galloping it just adds more frustration you know?