Well I don't understand it other than them getting people's hopes up only to bail on others that have it happened to me. I don't think it is melodramatic or off-putting because I am tired of having it happen to me time and time again as I want my fair shot but only to get shafted. I disagree with Fleder [nothing against you].

I am not going to stop roleplaying. I feel that would be giving to what everyone is telling me what to do when it comes to this as it feels like no one gets my side you know? I think I can never be happy and that eludes me in other areas as I feel I have no choice but to continue pushing desperately just to be understood and even to have my side looked at while wanting a fair shot. I am tired of just having the tablecloth constantly yanked out from under me because I am trying to get a fair shot like everyone else on an uneven playing field.

Happiness for me is basically a mirage like even a good RP even if I post an IC, I'll never obtain what any of you guys got. Good luck and consistent interest is in the same realms as a mirage no matter what I do. I don't have the options of everyone else as they got it better than me.