[@stone]
Stone, I am sorry but I have to hold it against them. For me, I am tired of being tossed aside and ghosted on over and over again in contrast to people that I have seen not face or run into these hurdles that I am constantly seeing as I deal with one hurdle but another pops up and it seems impossible to actually catch up and get to their success. 

It's one of the reasons why I take RP's very seriously as I want to be valid as a potential partner but also as a person as I feel whenever I bring up something it is always swords and pitchforks and not like understanding or any sort of relatability. I feel like I have to always be on the defensive whenever I feel like I am not heard and I have to be offensive and continue to push my side until I feel like people understand me instead of feeling like people ganging up on me.

It's hard for me to see another human behind the screen as not selfish or cowardly for ghosting when I have it happen to me time and time again to the point I feel like  I am just being toyed with on an emotional level when it comes to me wanting RP interest like everyone else but never get it at all.

I can't let go and move on from what seems is an injustice to me, ghosting is dishonorable and an injustice to me because they took the time to display interest but I feel like they need to own up to their initial interest and commitment needs to be upheld to me and my view Stone. It's like how can I when experience has been unkind to me time and time again and also other people?