[@Icy Hot]
Icy Hot, I know we have talked on a somewhat level before but it feels like they are going to lead me astray anyways. Anytime I have taken advice from anyone it doesn't work to what they say it would do nor how I expect it to be. Those that ghosted on me I couldn't change a thing about no matter the effort I put in when it comes to the roleplay attempts and being left hanging either in the planning phase or when I start they never reply back.

It certainly feels like it is permanent and no one gets how this feels. Every time I change something I am let down and the cloth is yanked out from under me, how does it make things easier when every time I try something new nothing changes and I am back to where I started? Why does it feel like no one understands this feeling and everyone is literally against me? I feel like I have to literally pull a rope in order to get people to at least understand let alone be on my side for once instead of mobbing on me.