Yeah, I'm not immune to the contradiction at all.  Like, I know Doom Eternal rules, and as much as I'd love to have my opinion validated externally, in the end I know it doesn't matter.  Just a petty little part of me screaming into the void.  
I don't care for Last of Us Part 2, but I don't hate it either.  Sure I think it's almost clean sweep of awards is a little weird, but it is what it is.  I could opine on why it is until my hair falls out, but that's a greasy can of worms I'd rather not stick my hands into.