Kay slowly looked up at John when he gestured for her to do so, making herself look in the eyes and forcing herself to not look away, no matter how much she must have wanted to. She listened to what he said, nodding slowly at his words feeling glad that he understood where she was coming from because he too, went through that moment of wanting to run. She was glad that he wasn't wanting to push her into breaking down those walls to let everyone in all at once, she appreciated that he was giving her time to do it in her own time. "thank you John, truly." she said back to him, still looking at him. "the last person I trusted was my best friend/adoptive sister Sam. Not having her near me to tell me things are okay and its okay to trust and let others in, it's difficult" she explained. "I will get there eventually, I promise, but I'm not ready to fully drop my guard yet." she added. "but I want to...I really do. I mean, you're not the worst person I've had in my company" she smirked ever so slightly. 

Chas leaned against the table as Serena opened up ever so slightly to him, to explain why it was difficult for her to just be herself around them or even be around them full stop. "that's tough. I can't imagine what that must have felt like, but I know what it's like to come face to face with a demon, to have threats given. I also know what it's like to die. John got involved in this magic world from an early age. We were young and stupid and in a punk band. Anyway, shit went down during a gig and a demon was summoned, slaughtering everyone in the club. John being who he was, thought the way to defeat the demon was to summon an even more powerful and bigger one. Except it went south fast...that demon stole our bass player's kid Astra. She was only like 10 years old, and he's hated himself ever since. Even put himself into an insane asylum to try and cope" he explained. "As for me? Myself and John were out at a gig in another bar one night. John drunkenly cast a spell on me leaving me behind so he could once again have a one night stand. An hour later if that, the placed somehow caught fire and burned down. myself and 47 others died, but because of the spell John cast on me, I came back to life, waking up in the hospital with my wife and kid by my bedside. I now have those other 47 souls onto myself, and every time I die, I come back but it costs me one of those 47 souls. Needless to say in this life that I help John in, I don't have 47 chances to come back. I have about 40 left" he explained.