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[b]December 4th 2016;[/b]

[color=D3D3D3][i]“Erwin Schrödinger once wrote; No self is of itself alone. It has a long chain of intellectual ancestors. The "I" is chained to ancestry by many factors… This is not mere allegory, but an eternal memory”[/i]

We got a genealogy task at school today. They want us to retrace our family history as far back as we can. I imagine most people are going to just go on Ancestry Online or something like that. Then there’s the likes of Callahan or Cleary who basically own this town and can literally trace their family back to the people who got off the boat and settled here. Personally I have all kinds of documents and records, mostly because my old man kept files of that shit. For a catholic priest he was die hard into his Native American roots which is a strange dichotomy.

I haven’t read too much of his stuff yet, hell I’m just surprised that my Mom kept it all considering they were never really a couple. She just got stuck with his stuff when he shot himself. 

James Strongbow Winters; that was my fathers name. It’s a name that I do not share but I carry around like a noose around my neck. Every step I take in this world it tightens and steals my breath away. It is because of his inability to do what was necessary that my mother and I are treated as such. Had he just been able to muster up the strength to break down that door, lives would not have ended and mine wouldn’t be as torturous as it is. 

Bastard. That’s what he was. That’s what I am. He claimed direct descendance from the Massachusett tribe or that’s what his letters claim. If I am to believe the words of a pariah, then the very lands I walk today are mine by birthright. My people are all but extinct, replaced by the Irish and the Italian. I owe nothing but hell to my father yet I must carry his sins and the legacy of my ancestors into the future. 

This will be an interesting project.

It’s the Pinehurst v Edenridge grudge match tonight. There’s also a cheerleading competition between multiple schools, what was it? Sparkle? Shining something? Poppy wants to go for some reason. She probably wants to fuck Francis Callahan or David O’Hara like everybody else...God I really hope not. I’d rather fuck my self in the ass with a sideways chainsaw but I’d do anything for her; so if this is what she wants then this is what will happen. I’ll have to leave early though, Decky is trusting me on his corner. I might bring Jade along for some company. I darent bring Penelope. She doesn’t belong in this world. I don’t want to do this. I don’t want to be slinging dope. Drugs are a terrible thing but my Mom cannot afford her treatment and I can’t just let her struggle. ReyRey is giving me a chance, I can’t fuck it up.

I love my mom.

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