Mika didn't particularly like what she said to him, but it was the first things that came to her mind when she needed a get out clause of sorts. Seeing him clearly so beaten up about her supposed death was making the walls around her heart fracture and crack, wanting to shatter apart so she could just finally say 'you don't have to, i'm here' but she also just couldn't let those walls break down... not yet. Yet she never once underestimated him when he said he would kill any demon that tried the move she threw out as an idea. Despite that and everything else he said, it was him admitting he was tired of everything that made her almost forget to breath for a couple of seconds before sighing, "Mika wouldn't want you to give up on her. Something tells me in my heart she's still out there and she needs you to find her" she told him. In her own vague way, she was telling him to figure out everything on his own and if he could just figure it out, it'd be so much easier for her to confess. She didn't want him to give up on her, despite her stupid games. 

"I know you're tired Dean, but if she is out there, do you really wanna be the one that doesn't find her? If anyone can bring her back to reality, I believe it would be you. She always believed you can save her Dean." she added, getting stupidly close to giving something away that 'Kenzi' shouldn't know, even if she was remotely related to Mika. "When she was down or getting bullied at school, you were the one to be there for her, dont stop now." she said before she could stop herself, mentally cursing herself for saying too much. She didn't want to remember those school days of being bullied to high heaven but as she was talking it brought it all back, the bullying, the insistance from Dean that all would be okay as long as he was there. HOw he would always cheer her up no matter the method to help her forget. The days they thought her parents didn't know he was hiding in her room over night, but her mother knew anyway, agreeing to hide it from her father. The nights they spent pratting around with her old polaroid camera in her room, the date nights...all of it came flooding back. 

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Sam saw her lips move as she whispered something, but he didn't quite hear what she whispered so he didn't ask, instead je just listened to her answer the questions he asked her. He was half expecting her to shut down and not open up as he was all too used to that situation happening with both Dean and his dad. Dean would always shut him down when he tried to make Dean speak to him about Mika, and his dad would just shut him out whenever he tried to talk about anything other than what he found in the old books or library findings. So coming across someone who would openly talk to him was a relief and a surprise, even if it was because of incredibly sad. When she was done talking, he walked over to her and hugged her tightly. "I am so sorry Anna" he told her, unsure if she had heard those words genuinely before or not but he had to say it. "But that is never the answer" he told her, "but i can understand why, I am sorry you have to turn to such things but I like to hope they will get better for kids like us. Just like i hope it gets better for our parents and my brother." he continued.