Feeling his forehead against her brought back so many memories of how he would do it to her when they were kids. The simple action brought so much calm to her back then, and it still brought a sense of calm to her now, even if she was hurting and still half expecting him to lash out at any second. She listened and understood that he was angry, she would be too if she was Dean, how could one not be after all this time? But hearing him say he wasn't going to fight her on this was of one the greatest reliefs she could have ever known.

She welcome ever peck he gave her, returning each one gladly as she heard the truth she had been ignoring from Bobby this whole time. She didn't want to believe that she didn't have to go through this alone all this time, but whenever Bobby had told her as much, she just figured he was saying it as empty platitudes. So hearing Dean say it it seemed to reso ate a little bit more, she wasn't so quick to brush it off as bullshit. Yet it was the fact he admitted he felt her die everytime he was with her alter ego that really drove home the guilt of what she had done all this time. She could have blamed everyone else for her actions, but she knew there had to be blame on herself as well. It wasn't just John's constant telling Dean she was dead, his constant yelling that Dean needed to stay away from 'Kenzi' as she was poison, it wasn't just Bobby struggling every day to convince her what she was doing was wrong, or the toxic consequences of her and Dean's actions in motels that drove her to keep up the charade. It was her own choice out of self disgust and self hatred and fear of what he'd do or say to her that drove it on for so long.

Looking back up at him as he lifted her chin with his chin, she kissed him again back, let him sweep her hair behind her ear before she felt herself clutched against him, making her close her eyes tightly and cling onto him as if for dear life. She reluctantly let him pull her back to look at her, peck her lips once more and nodded at his idea of getting her cleaned up, suddenly remembering what a state she was in after her hunt. "... Right" she replied.